to avoid suffocating keep away from children

careful what you wish for he'd repeated

his left pupil tugging at my right

both closed i looked

for something to push the arms towards

all red eyes and skin

in the morning i pulled myself back on

one shredded leg, two

hill climbed back into my shrugging

past complex tributary formations of piss stains and

hey baby i bet your pussy's so good propositions

down the block from my house

i raise my chin , both shoulders aimed square

this is the far end of fear.

weeks of stacking thick chalk board against the

weak will he climbed in through

i didn't go back. i didn't call.

alone the body forgets

so i stirrup strode into metal straws and oversized syringes

pressing deep into padded table into 

any sound but this.

both eyes on the floor

a seventeen year old tried next to me

heart-rate wouldn't lie but i had heard her being vacuumed one room over

and i couldn't blame her. i would be running too

across a blue curtain for privacy her

toes red moonboots, mine gold glitter

so i passed her the word cutie to be casual

two dabs of lavender oil behind the ears

i told how sometimes i take deep breaths when i  calm

down her eyes on my shoes

like they were the only thing she could see.